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Wishing on a Star: March 2006
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Wishing on a Star. Wishing . hoping . praying (sometimes) . waiting . Wednesday, March 29, 2006. I haven't been able to talk about it until now. I'm really not actually sure why - I just needed a little distance from it. Saint Anne phoned me soon after I last wrote and asked if I could come in a little earlier. I phoned AdventureBoy who was planning to meet me there after his early morning meeting. Message bank. Shit. Oh well, time to go! But there were eight? What does that mean? I closed it quickly whe...
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Wishing on a Star: September 2006
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Wishing on a Star. Wishing . hoping . praying (sometimes) . waiting . Saturday, September 30, 2006. Even couch dwelling is painful. And AdventureBoy is my slave once again. The surgery went well (or so Dr Challenge tells me) and he thinks they have removed all of it this time. So much so that he has decided not to go with a Zoladex and go straight into another cycle (starting this Monday). Thanks for all of your thoughts and wishes. I may be a little out of action for another couple of days yet, but ...
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Wishing on a Star: June 2006
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Wishing on a Star. Wishing . hoping . praying (sometimes) . waiting . Sunday, June 25, 2006. I feel like Alice's White Rabbit . no time, no time . and the pace has been dizzying. No wonder I haven't had time to write. And then, at 7pm on Wednesday, I will be on holidays! Posted by StellaNova @ 4:05 pm. Monday, June 19, 2006. That is, Other People's Kids. Was I being completely selfish? Did I have to? I'm not sure how long it will need to be like this. In all reality (and complete honesty) it will pro...
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Wishing on a Star: March 2007
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Wishing on a Star. Wishing . hoping . praying (sometimes) . waiting . Wednesday, March 28, 2007. I think I might be . I haven't been posting much lately - mainly because I don't want to give into the self-indulgent and ultimately boring and depressive whinging about how I'm feeling so uncertain. I know that before now, those posts from newly pregnant bloggers would hurt - not them, but me. That they were in a place I so desperately wanted to be and all they could do was complain. Last night, I was feelin...
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Wishing on a Star: August 2006
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Wishing on a Star. Wishing . hoping . praying (sometimes) . waiting . Wednesday, August 30, 2006. I had my appointment with Dr Challenge this evening. Poor love was absolutely exhausted. He had delivered 2 babies today (both IVF babies) and was working late to catch up on all of the appointments he had missed. And now, a new plan. He knows my reluctance for more surgery, but he is equally reluctant to do another cycle that could be doomed before it begins. So I guess he wins. More surgery it is. I'm real...
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Wishing on a Star: July 2006
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Wishing on a Star. Wishing . hoping . praying (sometimes) . waiting . Monday, July 31, 2006. The end is still darkness. The switch is flicked and I blink into the blinding light. I cannot see a thing, but the weight is heavy in my hands. It rolls gently over my palms and I notice I am sweating. It's slippery, a voice whispers in my ear. Don't drop it. I glance around but all is darkness or blinding light. Another whisper, it's the only way. I sigh. I know the truth. I am confident now. My movements a...
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Wishing on a Star: May 2006
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Wishing on a Star. Wishing . hoping . praying (sometimes) . waiting . Saturday, May 27, 2006. The moral of today's story . I must be some kind of masochist or something. Today, I did a very stupid thing. On describing said gift idea to my sister, she decided that the best place to find this toy would be in the BabyZone store on the other side of town (not that far - we live in a small town). Great idea, I thought. No worries about parking stations or fees and a lot less crowded. And then there was me.
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Wishing on a Star: October 2006
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Wishing on a Star. Wishing . hoping . praying (sometimes) . waiting . Monday, October 30, 2006. They forgot to phone me today. Of course, I went about my day . calm . not thinking about it . barely even remembering I had important news today . (yeah, right! AB phoned three times until I eventually phoned and got hold of them at the clinic. I'm waiting to hear from someone, I tried not to whine. Oh, hasn't Scientist Sparkly called? Wait on hold while I call them . This has got to be better. Don't get too ...
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Wishing on a Star: December 2006
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Wishing on a Star. Wishing . hoping . praying (sometimes) . waiting . Saturday, December 16, 2006. School's out for summer . No, we haven't been having sex for all of that time! So the sex for this cycle doesn't seem to have worked (for reproduction anyway). I have another cycle to go before I begin my next IVF cycle when Dr Challenge returns from his holidays. It's actually been quite liberating on this 'down time'. I have had another glimpse of what life used. Nd now I'm on holidays for 6 weeks! I have...