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iGoddess: April 2014

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Some of you may already know this, and others are only now finding out that I've recently relocated. Seriously. In two weeks I've lost eleven pounds, fixed my plantar fasciitis that I've suffered through since January of last freakin' year. Changed my self-image, love looking in the mirror, regained the ability to smile and laugh, and bought a punching bag. Well, unless you're a spider, in which case fuck you, I squish you dead. But yeah, punching bag! Type shit, but seriously, in twenty years I have tri...

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iGoddess: May 2012

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Y'know, i used to post here daily. When i thought about it, my first response was that maybe i just don't have as much to say as i used to. but immediately afterwards, i thought maybe it was simply that i'm not so self-absorbed as to think so many people would be interested in what i have to say. that probably makes a lot more sense. I really miss blogging. i do. i kinda miss all the f-bombs i used to drop, too. Links to this post. Subscribe to: Posts (Atom). Enter your email address:. My li'l sister, 10...

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iGoddess: The Dream Incubation Chamber

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The Dream Incubation Chamber. As if being back on the grounds was not unsettling enough, I found myself stuffed inside the dream incubation chamber while still cold and dripping with snow. Wonderful," I muttered. I cast about me, trying to get my bearings. There was light, but no real sun that I could see. It was just.light. Everything had upon it a layer of grey dust. How massive was the destruction upon this ancient city that in some places no two stones sat one upon the other? The silence was complete...

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iGoddess: the most loved, anticipated, empowered, enlightened, cherished, magical child ever born

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The most loved, anticipated, empowered, enlightened, cherished, magical child ever born. I knew the day it happened, honestly. how'd i know? Sore b-cups, that's how. other signs followed, of course. then my 28th day came.and went. that pretty much nailed it for me, but you know how other people can be. without confirmation, it can always be "so many other things.". Except for the simple fact that when you know, you know. y'know? So get ready. the iGoddess child is coming early August 2010. A list of the ...

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iGoddess: March 2012

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What's in a name. I was kinda tempted the other day to change this blog's name to "confessions of a raving bitch," but that's already taken, sadly. I'm having one of those "knock shit over left and right all over the damn house" days. right after yesterday discovering that i've been working on the wrong chapter all week for my statistics class, so i've done absolutely FUCKINGZERO work that i actually should. When my financial aid check finally came in, i bought a juicer and a whole ton of dr. schultze.

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iGoddess: April 2012

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Sometimes i get really tired of all the growth challenges, crucibles, and discovering more about myself. sometimes i just want what other people have: the good relationship, the smooth days, the utter non-event of more self discovery and self sacrifice. Sometimes i just want to be mundane. normal. dull, even. Links to this post. Letter to my 16 year-old self. Dear 16 year-old me,. 3) It Gets Better. All that stuff at home? You survive it. You're stronger than you know, and it's not your fault. Yo...7) Fo...

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iGoddess: The Year of

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Back when I was awesome, I used to look back on the past year in all its glory and suck, and give it an overall name to encompass the general theme. 2009 was the Year of the Funky Wow (my name for God, along with Funkalicious Jiggy Snake, and a hundred others). 2008 was the Year of the Delena. Getting seriously ill while carrying Lina pretty much lopped off my life at the knees, and I have yet to return to my inner me. I think it's well past time, don't you? This is a r[E]volution. Kay, not really all of...

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iGoddess: December 2013

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Back when I was awesome, I used to look back on the past year in all its glory and suck, and give it an overall name to encompass the general theme. 2009 was the Year of the Funky Wow (my name for God, along with Funkalicious Jiggy Snake, and a hundred others). 2008 was the Year of the Delena. Getting seriously ill while carrying Lina pretty much lopped off my life at the knees, and I have yet to return to my inner me. I think it's well past time, don't you? This is a r[E]volution. Kay, not really all of...

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iGoddess: There is wisdom in Facebook

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There is wisdom in Facebook. This just in, by me, on another friend's FB post about saying no. Perhaps, then, my goal should not just be to learn to say yes and no when and how I want, but to make sure I do not waver when the insensitive, narcissistic jerks of the world pressure me to serve their egos. And to be unafraid of the waves it'll cause.". Because I do. I cave in for the sake of peace, to be "Fix-It Girl," to make them happy at the expense of my self-respect, because I am able. HE: Do me a solid.

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iGoddess: January 2014

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The Most Unlikely of Answers. I don't know how long I wandered. There comes a time, when you are alone and wandering, when you realize you are lost. There is fear. Anxiety. Worry you will never find your way out. The unknown stretches before you. How long will you wander before you find your way out, or someone finds you? Then the thought comes: Oh god, I'm going to be lost forever. I think my fear of being "lost forever" has been one of the most powerful driving forces in my life. Not a very enjoyable e...