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Bipolar Conundrum #23: to be or not to be in the world | sad sad happy sad
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Sad sad happy sad. Down down up down is what it is. Bipolar Conundrum #23: to be or not to be in the world. October 30, 2016. Bipolar Conundrum #22: The Fall. Bipolar Conundrum #24: Get a Grip →. Leave a Reply Cancel reply. Enter your comment here. Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:. Address never made public). You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. ( Log Out. You are commenting using your Twitter account. ( Log Out. Notify me of new comments via email. Emily C. Heath.
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Bipolar Conundrum #15 Who Do You Say I Am | sad sad happy sad
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Sad sad happy sad. Down down up down is what it is. Bipolar Conundrum #15 Who Do You Say I Am. March 5, 2015. Who do you say I am. 8221; Just in case anyone recognizes the reference, don’t worry, I’m not feeling Messianic. I’m thinking of identity – of knowing who I am and also what others think of me. For my part, I have a form to fill out titled,. Activities of Daily Living. Sounds benign doesn’t it? Were they better off with me dead? Keep in mind that my brain is already altered by bipolar chemicals&#...
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Bipolar Conundrum #13 And the seasons they go round and round… | sad sad happy sad
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Sad sad happy sad. Down down up down is what it is. Bipolar Conundrum #13 And the seasons they go round and round…. August 13, 2014. Bipolar conundrum #13 and the seasons they go round and round. And when the chemical tide receded and I came back to myself, I stopped writing. I didn’t have the same need. May you find the peace you deserve Mr. Williams. And may the millions of others who are, right now, bound by darkness, see a speck of light to hold them till dawn. August 13, 2014 at 11:55 pm. By the end...
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Bipolar Conundrum #24: Get a Grip | sad sad happy sad
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Sad sad happy sad. Down down up down is what it is. Bipolar Conundrum #24: Get a Grip. November 4, 2016. I go for walks. A lot. And because I occasionally post selfies of me standing high up on the Niagara Escarpment near where I live, where the water looks like the Caribbean (trust me, it’s not that warm) and the rocks are majestic, I think there is an assumption that I walk these walks in perpetual awe of my surroundings and in a deeply meditative state. Um, nope. So that’s why I walk. Bipolar Conundru...
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Bipolar Conundrum #20: Faster Than a Speeding Bullet | sad sad happy sad
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Sad sad happy sad. Down down up down is what it is. Bipolar Conundrum #20: Faster Than a Speeding Bullet. January 7, 2016. Faster than a speeding bullet – a lot like a speeding bullet actually. A speeding bullet hurling towards me as I run like hell up the hill and then down the hill. Ness I never knew that I would actually miss that reliability. Not the reality but the predictability. This is new ground for me – new uneven ever changing ground. Last night I dreamed a lot and woke often. I dreamed of...
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Arrows | sad sad happy sad
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Sad sad happy sad. Down down up down is what it is. December 9, 2015. Words rush to leave my mouth. Pushed from pain to palate. To your unfortunate ears,. But can’t stop them. From turning into arrows. Do you know they cut me too? I bleed the moment I see them land. And know I’ve hurt. My baby, my own. I remember when you were one. And learning to walk. I’d stand in the middle of a room. And say, it’s ok puss, come to mama,. Come to mama,. And you’d totter to me, smiling,. Trusting me, trusting me. Bipol...
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Bipolar Conundrum #24: Get a Grip | sad sad happy sad
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Sad sad happy sad. Down down up down is what it is. Bipolar Conundrum #24: Get a Grip. November 4, 2016. I go for walks. A lot. And because I occasionally post selfies of me standing high up on the Niagara Escarpment near where I live, where the water looks like the Caribbean (trust me, it’s not that warm) and the rocks are majestic, I think there is an assumption that I walk these walks in perpetual awe of my surroundings and in a deeply meditative state. Um, nope. So that’s why I walk. Bipolar Conundru...
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BP Conundrum #14 Medication and Hope Make Strange Bedfellows | sad sad happy sad
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Sad sad happy sad. Down down up down is what it is. BP Conundrum #14 Medication and Hope Make Strange Bedfellows. October 22, 2014. But then a couple days later I broke out in a rash. Weird, huh? I took a full dose of the new med at lunch. Because today is a blue sky day. It’s gorgeous. And I didn’t go outside once. I didn’t feel the sun. I didn’t want to. And that is what I will gamble everything to avoid. Fingers crossed, prayers in, candles lit, hope balloon floated high. October 22, 2014 at 5:35 pm.
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November | 2015 | sad sad happy sad
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Sad sad happy sad. Down down up down is what it is. Monthly Archives: November 2015. Bipolar Conundrum #18: I have no bootstraps. November 26, 2015. It is raining and grey and mucky outside. Someone who mattered a great deal to me passed away recently and his funeral was just a few days ago. I’m in pain from my shoulder surgery a couple of weeks ago. I’m alone. I feel emotionally raw. Sometimes all it takes is a second, a blink, a breath and it all changes. That’s what chemicals do. They do...There was a...
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Bipolar Conundrum #19: the kiddie coaster | sad sad happy sad
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Sad sad happy sad. Down down up down is what it is. Bipolar Conundrum #19: the kiddie coaster. December 7, 2015. When I was in my teens and not anywhere near being diagnosed I used to tell my doctor that sometimes the blood ran too fast in my veins, and the feeling in my arm was that something was crawling under my skin. It wasn’t that I thought there was bugs in there or something but rather an energy, a push in my bloodstream that wasn’t normal or welcome. Mania doesn’t look like that for me anym...