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Amy's Mystery Illness: September 2014
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Thursday, 25 September 2014. TW: body image/weight, suicidal thoughts). That's all I can think of saying right now. I'm sorry. I really don't like myself very much these days and I hate when I'm like this. I take things personally, I try to support people but feel I'm saying all the wrong things. I hate myself for getting frustrated about that, because I think it makes me self pitying and self absorbed. Thursday, 18 September 2014. Struggling, and Questioning Myself (Updated). Recently, I went to see my ...
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Amy's Mystery Illness: Progress, hopefully? (Updated)
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Friday, 22 May 2015. Progress. I use that word tentatively. Don't get me wrong, of course I'm pleased if I have made any progress! I'm just still not sure if I have, or if I'm just telling the therapist what she wants to hear/complying with therapy tasks. My head's a mess I swear. I've spent so long trying to figure myself out. Why I think the way I do, why I behave the way I do, who I am even. Searching for answers and overthinking every single damn thing. I've really been trying though. I've remembered...
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Amy's Mystery Illness: August 2014
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Friday, 15 August 2014. This post is pretty much a follow on, from my previous post, More Mental Health Rambling. But also a (hopefully fluently written) collection of my thoughts after discussions on Twitter, about Mental Health services. What brought on these discussions was the very upsetting death of Robin Williams, the way the media handled reporting his suicide, and the recurring phrase "ask for help". What I need support for:. To find a way to lessen these suicidal thoughts. To be able to cope wit...
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Amy's Mystery Illness: February 2015
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Thursday, 5 February 2015. I'm trying. I'm really trying. It's been a month since my last post. I've had so much going through my head, and I suppose a lot going on too. I've wanted to write, rather than just ranting on Twitter, but I guess I couldn't put it into words properly. This post will mainly be an updates one. Massive TW for suicide and self harm details). He didn't ask many questions. Mainly why I was there, what my diagnoses were/what problems I've had/for how long etc. He also asked a...I als...
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Amy's Mystery Illness: April 2015
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Wednesday, 15 April 2015. This is a word that has come up A LOT recently. I put SO much pressure on myself. Pressure to be useful, pressure to be there for people enough, pressure to not say/do the wrong things (to a point where I try to do nothing wrong. Impossible! Pressure to be a better person, pressure to get back to people, pressure to be as productive as my health allows (actually, more productive than my health allows! Pressure to be as good as others at things like blogging etc. I want to go ont...
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Amy's Mystery Illness: Finally!
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Wednesday, 17 June 2015. If you've been following my blog for a while, you've probably seen me mention my hypermobility. Problems with my left knee. Either dislocating or subluxating. I've had this for a while and doctors have either brushed it off, or given me simple strengthening exercises to do that have proven pretty useless. I also have very flexible ankles that like to give way suddenly, and I used to sprain my ankles and wrists very easily). The appointment went much better than I expected! Finall...
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Amy's Mystery Illness: Past Experiences of Working Whilst Sick & Disabled
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Friday, 26 June 2015. Past Experiences of Working Whilst Sick and Disabled. I became ill with Fibromyalgia in my 2nd year of university. My first blog post. Gives a bit of background as to when, how it started, experiences with doctors etc. I tried my absolute hardest to push down all these symptoms though, because I worried about losing my job. I didn't know my rights when it came to work. I didn't know a thing about disability discrimination either. I wish there were more information/advice/guides abou...
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Amy's Mystery Illness: August 2015
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Monday, 10 August 2015. This is a bit of a venting post I'm afraid. I've been having some rough days recently. Physical health-wise, but it's my mental health that I think I've struggled with most. I hate how unpredictable my moods are sometimes. The times when I feel numb and empty aren't exactly wonderful, but they're a little easier to cope with than this. I'm not sure how clear I am when explaining it all. I'm trying to understand it myself! Through time, I think I've noticed more things too; like th...
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Amy's Mystery Illness: December 2014
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Monday, 22 December 2014. I recently sorted through some paperwork, old music sheets etc, and came across a poem I wrote when I was around 14, 15. It's not exactly a cheerful read, but I think in a way, it can be linked to the bullying I experienced at the time. I'm very critical of my own writing, and think the point of the poem should've been a little clearer, but as it is relevant to my previous post ( Where it all started. I felt that I should post it here. TW: Suicidal thoughts, bullying). They whis...
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Amy's Mystery Illness: Doubting
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Tuesday, 12 May 2015. I dread to think what'll happen next, but I refuse to be silent! Anyway, back to the topic of this post. I want to talk about my mental health again, and how I think therapy's going. I told my therapist today that when it comes to my thoughts, it feels as if there's so many that they form this huge messy knot in my head. It's hard to select each one, break it down, critically analyse it or even just acknowledge and accept it. From what I remember, this is what she says about me:.
