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Beanz on Toast: August 2009

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Wednesday, August 26, 2009. A very special cyber friend suggested that I keep some of his favourite shirts and have a quilt made. I will be forever grateful to her because this is the end result of a labour of love. I contacted my local quilters guild looking for someone to do this for me, the lady that undertook the project wanted no money or reward, a lady I have never met in my life before, undertook this task as a labour of love. There are good people in the world. This is not what I ordered! I miss ...

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Beanz on Toast: October 2009

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Thursday, October 22, 2009. Distractions don't always work. I can't believe it has been so long since i update my blog. So all in all it has been a busy time, with some major milestones survived, so why does it not feel better? A fellow widow (a lot further along in her journey) told me one that the second 6 months are harder than the first and the second year is harder than the first. At the time I wondered how anything could be harder than the first 6 months of living without Brian. Afgelopen zomer ate...

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Beanz on Toast: July 2009

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Thursday, July 30, 2009. Learning to live in my skin alone. I am slowly trying to learn how to be "single", I am slowly trying to learn how to rebuild a life for myself. Since Brian died, I just do not feel like I belong here, I really have no sense of purpose or reason, I am really not sure why I would even want to learn how to do this alone. My new life. Like it or not, want it or not, I have no choice, THIS. I don't want to, I have to. On reflection, Brian had bought me more jewellery in the 6 months ...

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Beanz on Toast: And the tsunami rolls in

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Thursday, September 10, 2009. And the tsunami rolls in. In the last few weeks I have achieved so much, I finished work, closed down the office, did my first trip away since Brian died and have generally been feeling like I am starting to function rather than just existing. So, I have been moving forward and re-building this new, unwanted life of mine. Here I am - this is me. There's no where else on earth I'd rather be. Here I am - it's just me and you. And tonight we make our dreams come true. And tonig...

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Beanz on Toast: September 2009

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Tuesday, September 15, 2009. I have let the dogs out for last "call", made sure windows and doors were locked, lights were off etc. many times before, but last night, it just struck me that I am the grown up now. Widowhood has stolen my eternal childhood from me. Then I got to pondering about the ways that widowhood has changed me physically. 1 I weigh 15 kgs lighter. 2 My hair has fallen out. 3 My body aches all over, all the time. 5 I have constant dark rings under my eyes. This is not what I ordered.

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The Unwedded Widow | I am an unwedded widow. This is my story. | Page 2

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I am an unwedded widow. This is my story. Newer posts →. Guilt Trippin’, across the universe…. September 2, 2010. 8230;not in the Starship Enterprise, and there’s no Captain Kirk…. Yes, I am Guilt Tripping. I’m capitalizing because this is not medium sized guilt tripping. This is Capital Letter Guilt Tripping, put you in timeout facing the corner guilt tripping….And why, you ask? Is that why Scripture says, ‘Do not let the sun go down on your anger’? And I tell myself, It’s not my fault, that he di...

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On Thursday it will be five years. | The Unwedded Widow

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I am an unwedded widow. This is my story. On Thursday it will be five years. November 4, 2014. What an impossibly long time. I’ve already passed the milestone of Nelson having been dead for as long as we were together. Then I passed the milestone of him being dead for longer than we were together. We had two years together. I’ve now had five of his absence. There’s no root canal for grief. I am an unwedded widow whose beloved died in November 2009. This is my story. View all posts by Hira Animfefte →.

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Hira Animfefte | The Unwedded Widow

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I am an unwedded widow. This is my story. Author Archives: Hira Animfefte. I am an unwedded widow whose beloved died in November 2009. This is my story. On Thursday it will be five years. November 4, 2014. What an impossibly long time. I’ve already passed the milestone of Nelson having been dead for as long as we were together. Then I passed the milestone of him being dead for longer than we were together. We had two … Continue reading →. September 26, 2012. Closer to the surface. September 20, 2012.