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Illegibility: February 2005
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Monday, February 28, 2005. I said, Spiderman, I said. Uhh. The great thing about MJ is. When you look in her eyes. And she's looking back in yours. Everything feels. Because you feel stronger and weaker at the same time. You feel excited, and at the same time, terrified. The truth is you don't know what you feel. Except you know what kind of man you wanna be. It's as if you've reached, the unreachable and you weren't ready for it.". Posted by Ted at 9:22 PM. Probably the worst was one where I was at her.
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Illegibility: December 2004
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Friday, December 24, 2004. So much stuff has been happening. I hate writing here because it feels like I can't really take the time to reflect. Been sleeping really late every night. Around 3am and waking up at 8am. Just because we like to hang out and play cards all night. Since being back in Taipei it's actually been pretty boring. Yesterday we went to a Carnival in Taichung that was with a massive group of Taiwanese and Malaysians. I thought it would be fun but it got a bit boring. Went to Taipei 101,...
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Illegibility: Fear II
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Sunday, January 08, 2017. It's weird to say it, but I fear both achievement and failure. The past few days I've been wrestling with this. I have so much anxiety over so many things. But I'll begin with success and failure. I told myself I would celebrate my successes more, that I shouldn't prevent myself from living my life and celebrating milestones for fear of jealous people. I don't know how I got to this point. Feels like I've been surrounded by so many negative, unsupportive voices. And it makes me ...
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Grumpy Girl: 2002-08-18
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A diary of grumpiness. Friday, August 23, 2002. Tells me that she found my blog because it was in the 10 most recently updated column in the blogger interface. This is a randomly generated thing and is updated every minute. I had always suspected that it didn't really work, as I'd never seen my blog listed in it. So just then I tried forcing it to include me by pressing "post" over and over again. It took a few gos, but eventually, there I was, top of the most recently updated list. Half chihuahua, half ...
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Illegibility: June 2005
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Thursday, June 30, 2005. There's this kinda pretty girl that works in my building. We've noticed each other around a bit. One time she bumped into my friend and I was so curious that I couldn't help but peer over him to see her. She was doing the same. It was strange. Like being in highschool again. So the other day I get to work as usual and I rush into the lift only to find myself in there with her and another woman. She looks up as I rush in, I keep my shy head down and push the button. The second gir...
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Illegibility: October 2004
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Saturday, October 30, 2004. Yesterday I was on the train home and the guy sitting across the aisle from me vomited everywhere. It was gross. What's even worse was that I could see it coming. He looked so uncomfortable. Then he started doing that gagging, 'trying to hold it back' gesture. I know I talk about work a lot. I could imagine these posts being boring to pretty much anyone not in my career field, but the fact that I post about my work here goes to show just how intrinsically important it real...
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Illegibility: New chapter
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Thursday, May 21, 2015. Wow It's been a while. Another one of those 'I can't believe it' moments. I could go on about how I never write anymore, but you've heard that all before. Regardless, it doesn't stop blowing me away every time I sit back and take time for myself to write here. The rarer it becomes, the more blown away I am I suppose. My Situation in Life. Here's to the start of an exciting new chapter. Posted by Ted at 10:29 AM. New York, United States. View my complete profile.
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Illegibility: Just Accept
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Wednesday, November 02, 2016. The older I get, the more I feel nihilism makes sense. I probably shouldn't say that, I don't fully understand what it means. I also feel romantic about the idea of taoism. The proponents that say you just let things be. Let things flow. Don't try to resolve contradictions in life, just accept them. Now I talk like I know all about Taoism, but I really don't. I'm just interpreting with the little knowledge and experience I have. So here I am again at the turning point. First...
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Illegibility: Others
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Wednesday, November 16, 2016. I don't know why, but I've always lived believing that once you learn something, you've learnt it forever. Done. Put it in a box. File it under 'finished'. But the longer I live, the more I realise that's just not true. I've known this for a long time, but I don't know why it's taken me so long to deal with it properly, but I care way too much what others think. My problem for a long time has been living for the approval of others. So why would they judge me any differently?