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it's a girl thing: April 2010
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It's a girl thing. One alcoholic's chronicle of the journey called recovery. Tuesday, April 20, 2010. A Day of Promise. I awoke at 9:30 AM this morning, ready to get up and greet the day. It was an especially beautiful morning, too. Full of birdsong, cool dry breezes, and huge yellow butterflies dancing among the trees and grass, putting on a private spectacle purely for my wonder and enjoyment. With a few simple words, the hope and joy in my spirit, the promise of the day were crushed. Did I suddenly fe...
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it's a girl thing: Running To Nowhere
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It's a girl thing. One alcoholic's chronicle of the journey called recovery. Tuesday, April 12, 2011. I'm tired. Slept until 3:30 PM. I know it's part depression, part exhaustion, too much running, not enough healing in between workouts, etc. When I awoke, I had a voice message from the HR person of the company I've now interviewed with twice for different positions. She said they had just posted another 30 hour position and I should apply for it right away. I feel like I'm on a hamster wheel. Update: Di...
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it's a girl thing: Heartsick
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It's a girl thing. One alcoholic's chronicle of the journey called recovery. Tuesday, March 11, 2014. Still wide awake and so sad. It's 12:52 AM and I have to get up at 5:30AM. To get ready to go to a job that I'm beginning to hate. A job that saps my self-esteem and confidence. A job that makes me doubt myself, and makes me feel that I am worthless. I'm seriously thinking of calling in sick. After all, I'm sick at heart, sick in the bottom of my soul. So, it wouldn't really be a lie. The Edge of Sobriety.
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it's a girl thing: Prayers (Please!)
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It's a girl thing. One alcoholic's chronicle of the journey called recovery. Tuesday, March 25, 2014. Everything pretty much the same here. Had a few good days after seeing the doctor and getting on new meds, but today, I'm back to where I was. Supposed to follow up with her tomorrow, and probably will, given that I'm barely holding back the tears at work. Either that, or I'm sarcastic and sniping at my coworkers. So much easier to be angry instead of sad, but that just hurts everyone around me. I will s...
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it's a girl thing: February 2011
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It's a girl thing. One alcoholic's chronicle of the journey called recovery. Wednesday, February 23, 2011. I'm Not Lovin' It. I am in a bog of quicksand, known as Resume Hell, and sinking fast. I have to find a job. My hubby is constantly stressed out because of all the debt we've amassed, and eventually, we want to buy a house. Plus, he's going to be traveling a lot with his job come spring. So, I need to start working again, both for financial reasons and to put some structure into my everyday life.
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it's a girl thing: December 2010
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It's a girl thing. One alcoholic's chronicle of the journey called recovery. Friday, December 31, 2010. New Years Eve News. Hey, y'all. Haven't updated for a while, and just need to catch my breath a bit and say. Hello, I'm still here! Don't know why that's so important, except I guess having this blog that no one reads is at least a way to keep myself real and accountable in some way. I need a meeting desperately. I haven't been to one for at least 2 weeks now, and am starting to have really frighte...
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it's a girl thing: July 2010
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It's a girl thing. One alcoholic's chronicle of the journey called recovery. Friday, July 30, 2010. Roy and I are waiting to hear from a team of engineers and Ole Miss professors with whom we met for extensive interviews, tours, etc. last weekend. They asked us both to fly up, even though he was the job candidate, and payed for all our expenses, took us out to eat, and encouraged us to look at housing options. It seemed to go very well. We flew back Sunday night. And now we are waiting. 15 Days, No Cigs.
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it's a girl thing: Kill Me Now. Please.
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It's a girl thing. One alcoholic's chronicle of the journey called recovery. Tuesday, March 11, 2014. Kill Me Now. Please. This is the first day in a long while that I've seriously wanted a drink. Needed to just numb out and not feel. I didn't drink. but I wanted to. I'm glad I didn't drink, but I'm scared. I'm almost 7 years sober now, and I've heard that the 7 year mark seems to be a danger point for some obscure reason. Huge, racking sobs. I'll obviously never get promoted. I don't know how to fix this.
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it's a girl thing: We Will Not Regret the Past...But Can I Have a Do-Over?
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It's a girl thing. One alcoholic's chronicle of the journey called recovery. Saturday, April 23, 2011. We Will Not Regret the Past.But Can I Have a Do-Over? Just discovered something you should NEVER do on Facebook. Search for your ex. The one that got away.". The one relationship you really blew. That if you had a chance to do over, knowing what you know now, you'd jump into that DeLorean without looking back. He's handsome. Successful. Married to a gorgeous wife with 2 gorgeous kids. The present is now.
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it's a girl thing: A Good Day
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It's a girl thing. One alcoholic's chronicle of the journey called recovery. Monday, April 18, 2011. My 490 Kickbutt Miles Pathway to Peace. 65279;Today was a good day. . 65279;. I ran 4.90 miles. I felt like puking. But I DID IT! Then, I went to evening church, followed by an evening meeting. Came home, ate supper, and have been watching DVRed shows, Tweeting, and Facebooking. I'm also doing laundry. Oh, and we've had free HBO and CineMax all weekend!
