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BP = FU: 12/6/09 - 12/13/09
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Monday, December 7, 2009. I had a rotten weekend. My worthless son and a friend of his were supposed to come help us put up Christmas lights. Hubby and I neither one care much to get on the roof. It's not the roof, per se, it's the effing ladder we don't like. So, I'm expecting no Christmas lights this year. Of course we've called a moratorium on Christmas this year due to financial concerns but still - the lights would've made it cheery around here, even without a Christmas tree and gifts. So Sunday I s...
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BP = FU: 8/30/09 - 9/6/09
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Saturday, September 5, 2009. I actually got 99% of the dirty dishes washed yesterday! Mind you, this is the first housework I've done in a month. Poor DH has been cooking and doing laundry on top of his 14-hour workdays, and I've been too depressed to do much of anything for months. I was really starting to give up, having suicidal thoughts but no plan - it was just too much work to even plan my own death. Is it unreasonable for me to want to see an MD for my illness? Monday, August 31, 2009. I can't sit...
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BP = FU: 9/27/09 - 10/4/09
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Saturday, October 3, 2009. Ye Gods, what a rough couple of weeks. I started another temporary job with the Census and have been run ragged ever since. It'll be over with in another couple of weeks, though. And boy do we need the money. So I won't be writing much 'til the job is over. I'm doing OK (as long as I remember to take my am meds, LOL). The stress is not good for me but no panic attacks or meltdowns (yet). Wish me luck! Subscribe to: Posts (Atom). Max the Mini, and Me. View my complete profile.
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BP = FU: 9/6/09 - 9/13/09
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Friday, September 11, 2009. No More State Mental Health Services for Me! I've had it. Ever since I qualified for Social Security Disability I've been seen by one state-run mental health facility or another. Not one of them has provided the care I need. The proof? I'm 8 years in and still not stable for any length of time between episodes. I was manic last spring, then dropped immediately into depression for several months, and now I've jumped to hypomania. Just me as a bipolar person. We agreed that no, ...
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BP = FU: 9/13/09 - 9/20/09
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Saturday, September 19, 2009. Bipolar, Gay and Christian. I've made the acquaintance of another blogger who writes about her struggles with BP and with reconciling being gay with her Christianity. My heart hurts for her; she's recently had to go off her medication because she can't afford it any longer. Now she's back on that terrible mood rollercoaster. And I would like to say this to her, and to all the others out there who are going through the same thing:. Saw the New Therapist Yesterday. In an earli...
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BP = FU: 8/9/09 - 8/16/09
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Saturday, August 15, 2009. Thought I'd start the inaugural post with some general stuff. I'm amazed I even found the energy to create this blog - I'm having a depressive episode that's been going on for a couple of months. Had a bit more energy today, though. Maybe I'm coming out of it. Come on, mania! I want to feel good again. Here are some common misconceptions I've run into when telling people I have a mental illness:. Mental illness is not contagious. Here are some things that upset me:. Listen ...
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BP = FU: 11/22/09 - 11/29/09
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Tuesday, November 24, 2009. Thank the Goddess for mania, and possibly for gabapentin. My month-long job with the US Census ended October 28, but I then had to bust my ass making soaps and Christmas crafty things for three craft fairs in November. If I hadn't been at least hypomanic, I wouldn't have made it through all that. I had two one-day fairs back to back, one Nov. 7 and one in a different location Nov. 8. Setup and tear down were a bitch! Wanna hear something funny? So yes, I'm still around, but ha...
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BP = FU: The Storm
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Tuesday, December 22, 2009. A storm blew in last night. Gusting gales of rage. I couldn't stand against. With lightning strikes of despair. And a deluge of pain so strong. I screamed and screamed. While no one was home. Until the worst of the storm was over. Then the gentle patter of tears began. And hasn't stopped yet. I hate to cry but I know I'm safe. From taking my life. As long as I can puke out the pain. And not bottle it all up. No one can help me, not even. Others weathering the storm. Depression...
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BP = FU: 6/20/10 - 6/27/10
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Wednesday, June 23, 2010. A Wonderful, Satirical Poem. A Little Fun with Acceptance" is a marvelous, satirical poem about - you got it - accepting our disorder. Written by Will Meecham, MD, MA over at Bipolar Advantage, Looking at the Positive Side of Disorder. Brings to light all the negative emotions we deal with on a daily basis. There are some in there that I wasn't even aware I'm trying to cope with! Take a look. It's worth it. Subscribe to: Posts (Atom). Max the Mini, and Me. NIMH - About Bipolar.
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