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June | 2016 | Recovering Olivia
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June 30, 2016. I started smoking about 3 months ago, and at the time i fully intended to stop when i left treatment. However i got home and decided to continue long enough to finish my current pack. Then, i bought two more packs and decided i didn’t need to stop just yet. I started smoking in treatment because i was trying to not self harm and i was desperate for a “valid” form of harm. The majority of the clients in treatment smoked, so it was pretty socially acceptable. No one thoug...It did give me an...
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My Person | Recovering Olivia
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November 17, 2016. Today it is November 16th 2016, which means it’s the eve of my persons birthday. I am pumped! I know Emily isn’t excited about her birthday, at least not to the extent i am, and that’s okay because i’m here to celebrate enough for the both of us. So Emily, my person, my best friend, kind of very much the best person ever, happy birthday! Here is gift one so, ya know, we can pretend i am actually on time with your gift. So what’s there to celebrate? You are kind. One of the kindest,...
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Racism | Recovering Olivia
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November 11, 2016. November 11, 2016. I remember being a young girl and learning about slavery. I was around 7 or 8 years old and i remember feeling glad that slavery didn’t exist anymore; that racism didn’t exist. It was nice to know that America’s ugly history was in the past and that no one would hate me based on the color of my skin. As social media has become bigger in the past few years, and more prevalent in my life, i have been made aware of how racism effects the whole world. Especially so i...
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September | 2016 | Recovering Olivia
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September 30, 2016. What is good enough for me? I want to be more open. And basically not spend my life scared to move/speak/do anything. I don’t think i’m at the point of truly letting myself go, but it wouldn’t be too horrible to tell my friends how i’m doing or ask them for help. Or to actually be totally honest in therapy and like let myself cry when i need to for once in my damn life. Those are basically the only goals i have for my life right now. And honestly, i think that’s a fair start.
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Growth | Recovering Olivia
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November 24, 2016. Originally this post started out as a list of things i’m thankful for. What has become increasingly clear with each time i’ve rewritten it is that ultimately i’m thankful for growth. It has become so clear to me lately just how much i’ve grown as a person. All the positive crap people spew at you (. 8220;it gets better” “you’ll be stronger for this”, all that crap. With Em just the other day! Okay if things end. I’m beginning to believe that what i have to say is mildly impor...For now...
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November | 2016 | Recovering Olivia
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November 24, 2016. Originally this post started out as a list of things i’m thankful for. What has become increasingly clear with each time i’ve rewritten it is that ultimately i’m thankful for growth. It has become so clear to me lately just how much i’ve grown as a person. All the positive crap people spew at you (. 8220;it gets better” “you’ll be stronger for this”, all that crap. With Em just the other day! Okay if things end. I’m beginning to believe that what i have to say is mildly impor...For now...
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Election stuff | Recovering Olivia
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November 15, 2016. My first instinct with this post is to give some kind of disclaimer or make a self deprecating comment for yet. Election post. The reality is, though, that i’m not sorry. I don’t feel bad for writing another election post. This isn’t something i am going to stop talking about. So anyway, here are some things the election has taught me:. Electing a hateful person justifies hate in a lot of people’s minds. Electing a bully teaches others that bullying is okay. I suppose this is a good ti...
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November 9, 2016 | Recovering Olivia
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November 9, 2016. November 9, 2016. Today has been a whirlwind. Let’s start with the election:. Donald Trump has won the election for president of the united states. I hate having to write that sentence. This is something i never thought could happen. Since the moment he announced he was running i assumed it was a joke. I thought surely he would never get far. He did. Then comments/actions. What a joyous time to be a poc, lgbt, and a woman). Moving on to mental health related things:. You are commenting ...
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December 20, 2016. A nice conglomeration of thoughts just for you all. My mind has been all over the place recently. A quick warning: This probably contains triggering things; i don’t have the energy to censor things correctly. I miss my grandmother. I want her back. I want her back right now, forever. It isn’t fair. I need to be back in California, asap. I need to be back. I want to be with my loves again. I want to see Courtneyrose again. Why why why why why why why. Leave a Reply Cancel reply.
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August | 2016 | Recovering Olivia
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August 31, 2016. I’ve been trying to write for what feels like forever now and, despite having 3 million things to talk about, none of it ever gets put in to words. I am never in quite the right mood to write and be happy with the result. So for now i’m sticking to a short and sweet version. Life is hard and it scares the ever living shit out of me. I like to fool myself into thinking i’m doing okay. It’s becoming quite the issue. I have an incredibly dysfunctional family. That’s about all i’...I want to...