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Maya Posch: The beautiful agony of innocence
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Ph33r the whining and drama. Saturday, 25 July 2015. The beautiful agony of innocence. Rhyming such incredibly beautiful innocence and joy with utter bleakness and despair as being part of the same world and intrinsic aspects of the human psyche is almost too much to bear. This world is truly hatefully ugly and astoundingly beautiful at the same time, while populated by individuals capable of the most heart-warming humane and incomprehensibly evil acts, often within the same breath. Yet no matter how fer...
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Maya Posch: March 2015
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Ph33r the whining and drama. Sunday, 29 March 2015. Boundless terror and the limits of Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder. I feel safe at work, as there's nothing there that's frightening or dangerous in any way. Even having to work the weekend or most of the night to get a fix ready isn't something scary, just another interesting experience. If anything it just makes me feel safer because I know that people trust me enough to rely so much on me. So while my PTSD appears to be showing some cracks at this poi...
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Maya Posch: Sick of hormonal issues
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Ph33r the whining and drama. Thursday, 6 August 2015. Sick of hormonal issues. Thus I'm left with just dealing with these daily pains, inconveniences and worries and frustrations about what in heavens name is happening to my body, without a solution in sight for the rest of my days. All part of my own private cozy little Hell. Posted by Maya Posch. Thursday, August 06, 2015. Subscribe to: Post Comments (Atom). Don't forget to visit my main site, www.mayaposch.com. Photo for Viva magazine. Pregnancy updat...
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Maya Posch: When your mind tries to convince you life isn't worth living
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Ph33r the whining and drama. Friday, 24 July 2015. When your mind tries to convince you life isn't worth living. As I have mentioned before: merely surviving doesn't make a life worth living. It's just stressful, day to day survival with only major accomplishing being the fact that one hasn't died or become too maimed yet. It also makes me resort to venting on my blog like this far too much and making others feel worse in the process. Posted by Maya Posch. Friday, July 24, 2015. Photo for Viva magazine.
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Maya Posch: May 2015
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Ph33r the whining and drama. Saturday, 30 May 2015. The more you want to live, the closer death gets. I'm now living with chronic pain since the beginning of this year without any hint of what's happening beyond the appearance of more and more confounding and seemingly impossible symptoms. For all I know I'll be collapsing next week on the streets, at the office, while shopping, or at some other completely arbitrary location and point in time, and die before I can be brought to a hospital. The next two d...
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Maya Posch: January 2015
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Ph33r the whining and drama. Tuesday, 27 January 2015. Processing trauma: knowing versus feeling. I think I'm beginning to process my traumas. I could never describe the full extent of all these traumas, of how it felt, how it ripped away one piece of my soul after another. To face one more humiliation by Dutch physicians after another and another. To see no exit, but only the endless road ahead of me as I trudged on, chasing one false hope after another. The extent to which I curse having been born with...
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Maya Posch: September 2014
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Ph33r the whining and drama. Friday, 26 September 2014. Why Bad Parents Need Not Apply In Any Discussion. Because you're starting off with a negative impulse before anything negative has even happened. This only makes the child feel bad and unhappy despite not having done anything yet. Even if we will never live to see the results, we will fight. For we are the ones with history on our side. We cannot relent. Because we are the good parents. Posted by Maya Posch. Friday, September 26, 2014. Over the past...
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Maya Posch: November 2014
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Ph33r the whining and drama. Wednesday, 26 November 2014. PTSD: Ashamed Of Being Afraid All The Time. Returning home earlier from work, I was initially glad to be back indoors now that it's getting pretty chilly outside. Then I heard it again. Thump* *thump* *thump* *thump* *thump*. I can't let others show these weaknesses, though. They will abuse it. They always will. Can't trust others. Never again. More tears as I realize how deep my paranoia and distrust towards others around me g...I'm so ashamed...
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Maya Posch: July 2015
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Ph33r the whining and drama. Thursday, 30 July 2015. On seeking help, finding pain and running away. It was a bit of an unusual appointment regardless, as it coincided with me being sick since Tuesday, with something which very much feels a bit flu-ish, but probably has a significant stress and general emotional exhaustion contributing to it as well. Ignore it. Run away from it. Ignore this body. It will all be fine. Just pretend it's all not there. Posted by Maya Posch. Thursday, July 30, 2015. This tra...
