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Healing Wounds: December 2012
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Sunday, 16 December 2012. What I've been doing. I haven't updated for quite a while, sorry about that. I've just been trying to digest everything and wrap my head around the fact that he is going to jail. I am getting there, but it's a long process. I'm doing a hell of a lot better than I was 6 months ago. And hopefully in 6 months time I will be doing better still. One step at a time; one day at a time. The question I keep getting asked recently is; what am I doing with my time now? Most of the time, be...
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Healing Wounds: The problem
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Thursday, 21 February 2013. All in all, I'm doing alright. I'm getting my life back on track. But sometimes I feel as if I'm not doing it fast enough. I feel as if people are thinking "you've got the guilty verdict, you've got the amazing sentencing, everything worked out so much better than expected - so why aren't you healed? Move on with your life already". So what's the problem, you ask? The problem is that I still flinch. I'm still wary. I still don't trust. I know there comes a point where "enough ...
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Healing Wounds: April 2012
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Monday, 16 April 2012. In the next week and a half I will hear from my liason officer about what's happening with the trial, if there is a trial. Will he plead guilty to all accounts and go straight to jail, but serve a lesser sentence? Will he plead guilty to some charges and innocent to others? In which case he will still go to jail (due to the other chargers) but I will need to testify against him. Or will he plead innocent to all 40 chargers? Will he plead innocent? Will I have to face him in court?
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Healing Wounds: May 2012
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Tuesday, 29 May 2012. But sometimes. sometimes I have moments where I am filled with despair and I think "why me? I should be graduated from university by now. I should have a job. I should be happy. I know that there is nothing that can be done about my past. I know there is no point in saying "why me? I want to worry about normal things. I want to worry about exams, about relationships, about the next party. I don't want to worry about trying not to flinch when I am touched. I don't want to...But that ...
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Healing Wounds: Let the music do the talking
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Monday, 30 June 2014. Let the music do the talking. Today is the anniversary of my rape. Instead of using words to describe what I'm feeling, I thought I'd let the music I've been listening to do the talking. Tori Amos - Me And A Gun: Lyrics. Linkin Park - Easier To Run. Evanesence - Going Under. Metallica - Until It Sleeps. Black Stone Cherry - Holding On. To Letting Go: Lyrics. Christina Aguilera - Fighter. Subscribe to: Post Comments (Atom). I've been stripped by this. Diary of a deaf girl.
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Healing Wounds: February 2013
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Thursday, 21 February 2013. All in all, I'm doing alright. I'm getting my life back on track. But sometimes I feel as if I'm not doing it fast enough. I feel as if people are thinking "you've got the guilty verdict, you've got the amazing sentencing, everything worked out so much better than expected - so why aren't you healed? Move on with your life already". So what's the problem, you ask? The problem is that I still flinch. I'm still wary. I still don't trust. I know there comes a point where "enough ...
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Healing Wounds: October 2012
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Sunday, 21 October 2012. The trial starts on the 19th November. 29 days from now. I'm dreading it and want it to be over. I've been having a lot of nightmares recently as well. I think the closer the trial gets, the more difficulty I'll have sleeping. Which isn't great, considering I have enough trouble sleeping as it is! I'm dreading going on the stand and giving evidence. I'm dreading being cross-examined by the defense. I know that I will be put on trial, not him. (That makes sense, right? There’...
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Healing Wounds: There is hope
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Thursday, 20 June 2013. It's been a long time since I last posted. I've been focusing on enjoying life and living it, instead of trying to analyse how I'm feeling and why I'm feeling that way. It's been nice to get out of my own head for a while and just roll with things. And you know what? I've realised that I am. I spent about a month trying to kick my insmonia's ass, and I have! And what he did to me. However - I think about him less and less. Days (even a week) can go by without me thinking a...I als...
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Healing Wounds: Victim Blaming
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Sunday, 23 June 2013. I should never have to write a post about victim blaming. Our society should support victims, should listen to them, and should help them. Instead, our society says "it's your fault for getting raped. You should have known better. You shouldn't have put yourself in the sort of situation that leads to rape.". Our society never blames the rapist. In fact, our society sympathises with rapists. You only need to look at the reactions to the Steubenville rape case. She has to live with th...
