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February | 2010 | Flying Veggie Pumpkin Eater
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Flying Veggie Pumpkin Eater. If you're going to try, go ALL the way. Archive for February, 2010. Older Entries ». February 28, 2010. Warning: may be triggering for some. [talk about weight, etc] =. What I said on my last post, I now realize, was not coming from me. Me, myself, I, know that I am not in a healthy place physically or mentally. I don’t have a period, I feel weak pretty much all the time. I feel. Even though I am not clinically underweight, It. To sit. It. To get up. It. My own happy weight.
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October | 2011 | Flying Veggie Pumpkin Eater
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Flying Veggie Pumpkin Eater. If you're going to try, go ALL the way. Archive for October, 2011. October 6, 2011. 8220;I drove through countries like a marching funeral. In the search of fools and utopians. Along the lonely roads with all the empty human souls. Filling their heavy hearts. With slum religion and Coca-Cola. Every book is read and I’m paralyzed. Every fist is clenched, but I’m so tired. 8220;Goodbye my friends. Goodbye to the money. Adieu to the fuckers that think that it’s funny. A cure for...
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Determined | Flying Veggie Pumpkin Eater
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Flying Veggie Pumpkin Eater. If you're going to try, go ALL the way. Laquo; It’s still there. May 2, 2011. I hate my eating disorder. Every time I turn around it’s there. It’s as if I can’t escape from it. I have to be honest with myself right now: I’ve been struggling a lot. And not in a good way. My eating disorder is still getting the best of me. Leave a Reply Cancel reply. Enter your comment here. Please log in using one of these methods to post your comment:. Address never made public).
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with the cute face: July 2010
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Sunday, July 4, 2010. Thanks for the support, guys. Saturday, July 3, 2010. In desperate need of support. It's funny how things can change so quickly, in just a matter of days. A few days ago, I was on top of the world. In New York City. Feeling free, and happy. But it never fails - every single time I come back home, my own brain becomes a ticking bomb. Any small trigger, and all hell breaks loose. A positive sign. And I've been working out like an asshole. I do fucking good enough? I come back here for...
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January | 2010 | Flying Veggie Pumpkin Eater
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Flying Veggie Pumpkin Eater. If you're going to try, go ALL the way. Archive for January, 2010. Older Entries ». We are just worried about you. January 31, 2010. So I had a “talk” with my parents and sister about my whole ‘situation’. I ended up crying. Getting emotional because I got so angry and defensive. I was angry because:. 1) They don’t understand anything. About nutrition and how much/what I should eat each day. 2) They think I am just. 8216;are a joke’. OH, It is ALL JUST A BIG JOKE. I am alive&...
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Flying Veggie Pumpkin Eater | If you're going to try, go ALL the way. | Page 2
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Flying Veggie Pumpkin Eater. If you're going to try, go ALL the way. I’m breaking down inside. June 27, 2010. I’m not quite sure whats happening. I guess I’ve been fooling myself. That I could go on like this. Like a normal ‘healthy’ person. I could play soccer. Go to work. Uni. See friends. Be happy. Oh boy was I wrong. The hardest part is that I’m. Hurting everyone around me through this entire process. Tortures me beyond any description. That I am hurting my family and friends. Through what I am doing.
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January | 2011 | Flying Veggie Pumpkin Eater
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Flying Veggie Pumpkin Eater. If you're going to try, go ALL the way. Archive for January, 2011. The Most Awful Cycle In The World. January 10, 2011. Yes I have entered it. The binge/purge/restrict cycle and it’s so fucking hard to stop. For a few weeks now I’ve found it very difficult to stop bingeing. I’m at a healthy weight, and have been now for several months, so I know it can’t be physical. It’s psychological crap. I feel so out of control and disgusting. I want to be at peace. Faith Food and Fitness.
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The Most Awful Cycle In The World | Flying Veggie Pumpkin Eater
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Flying Veggie Pumpkin Eater. If you're going to try, go ALL the way. Laquo; Update i.e.Week 8 Inpatient. It’s still there. The Most Awful Cycle In The World. January 10, 2011. Yes I have entered it. The binge/purge/restrict cycle and it’s so fucking hard to stop. And ashamed and loathsome and repulsive and vile and like I want to hide myself away. I hate my body. Or I hate what my eyes are showing me in reflection of my current mindset. I absolutely despise my appearance. I want to disappear. Shoot me an...
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May | 2010 | Flying Veggie Pumpkin Eater
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Flying Veggie Pumpkin Eater. If you're going to try, go ALL the way. Archive for May, 2010. Older Entries ». May 30, 2010. This isn’t a false alarm. I binged. I WAS SO HUNGRY. It’s like nothing could satiate me. I tried so hard to balance my meals properly today, to eat when I was hungry, and stop when I was full. I ate well. That was until I got home. My mum and I went to yoga, which was nice but all I was thinking about was food. I lost control. I. I ate what I wanted. Everything. I know it would have ...