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descent – bleached noise

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Living with a medicated mind. January 2, 2017. I’m there again, in that place. I can’t think about the next minute without feeling anxious about my ability to cope with it. Yesterday I was convinced I had to be hospitalized—something I desperately fear—because the alternative was far more dangerous. Living is dangerous. I don’t recognize her. I hate her, and yet I wish I could be her again. Can I allow my failure to cope to be such a source of pain to those around me? The trouble is that I don’t ha...

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joyno – bleached noise

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Living with a medicated mind. Feeling like a puppet. Lithium holding the strings controlling my mind. I’m sure I would lose hold of my sanity without them, but they are unreliable and weak controls. Sometimes I feel as if my mind will snap free of the strings and get lost in its paranoid delusions—who’s behind the shower curtain? My hands are shaking. This will be a long night. January 12, 2017. No, he says, you have a choice to get out of the molasses and do something. I cannot stop myself from falling ...

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life of the party – bleached noise

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Living with a medicated mind. Life of the party. December 31, 2016. I cannot remember much of Christmas. Big family gathering. Self-medicating my anxiety with glass after glass of wine and a little Klonopin. I remember dancing, deejaying, monopolizing the music and the kitchen dance floor. I remember—I think—rolled eyes, the occasional grimace. Laughter? No, I can’t hear it in my memory. The wrong people were there. Or perhaps I was the wrong person. What did I do? Did the children see me? Celebrations f...

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On the verge of tears | Journalling through Depression

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My story of depression and anxiety. February 15, 2015. On the verge of tears. I can’t get out of this rut. I feel tired and like there is no hope for things to change. Yet I keep having mini bursts of energy and hope, like yes, I can change things. Like I can start running again and lose weight. And I do, but then self-destructively stop and binge on ice cream and hide in my bed. I’ve closed so many doors lately and and it seems too hard to reopen them. This entry was tagged anxiety. You have motivation,...

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Prolonged Exposure Therapy | flyflydandelion

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Let the memories fade away…. November 10, 2014. But I know many more harder weeks will be coming before I know it. One day at a time. One Response to “Prolonged Exposure Therapy”. November 11, 2014 at 6:20 am. Yay, that is a really big step forward! Leave a Reply Cancel reply. Enter your comment here. Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:. Address never made public). You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. ( Log Out. You are commenting using your Google account. ( Log Out.

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Stuck In My Head | flyflydandelion

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Let the memories fade away…. Stuck In My Head. November 14, 2014. 2 Responses to “Stuck In My Head”. November 14, 2014 at 3:16 am. November 14, 2014 at 7:46 pm. Thanks. That means a lot🙂. Leave a Reply Cancel reply. Enter your comment here. Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:. Address never made public). You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. ( Log Out. You are commenting using your Twitter account. ( Log Out. You are commenting using your Facebook account. ( Log Out.

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depressedbuthopeful | Journalling through Depression

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My story of depression and anxiety. January 3, 2016. It’s a new year and the tendency is to resolve to be better in the year ahead. Three days in, I’ve done that, broken that and become a bit lost. So after a long absence, I thought I might return to blogging, something that has helped me so much in the past in figuring out where I am and where I am going. So here I am. I feel this post getting more negative as I confront my worries. So I will take a step back and look again at the big picture. Lessening...

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In the City | Tina Ledger

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The Angry Lesbian: Gender and Sexuality Blog. Rubyyy Jones – interview. A woman’s place. National coming out day: Our story. Rubyyy Jones – interview. Top 10 reasons to ‘go lesbian’. Is feminism too middle-class? Breeders – review. The Electric Lady – review. Rubyyy Jones – interview. Tasha Doughty: The Colour Wheel. Sapphic Clique: Mouthguard Challenge! Sapphic Clique: Lick the Bean. National coming out day: Our story. Is feminism too middle-class? Breeders – review. The Electric Lady – review. Events r...

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witchylen | Let all of life be an unfettered howl.

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Let all of life be an unfettered howl. You see, I had absolutely nowhere else to go. A priestess who understood the forces of nature,or, rather, SHE is someone who, by the simple fact of having little to lose or hope for in life, took greater risks than other people and ended up being transformed into the forces she thought she mastered. December 25, 2013. Originally posted on Grotesqueofsullenest. Vignette of a fearful soul. May 23, 2013. April 21, 2013. Birthdaymessage thankfulness flowers chocolates.

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Avoidance Isn’t Always A Bad Thing {+ Fonts!} – Moonlight and Madness

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Avoidance Isn’t Always A Bad Thing { Fonts! Avoidance Isn’t Always A Bad Thing { Fonts! January 27, 2015. If anyone remembers what show that’s from, I would be shocked. :). I’m purposely avoiding any hurtful topics today, because I’m feeling the need to binge and I don’t want to do anything to trigger myself more. I checked my blood glucose level last night because I wasn’t feeling well, and it was so high my meter couldn’t give me a reading (which means it was above 600. So I decided that meant today I&...