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Jayne Soleil: March 2016
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Thanks to my parents, for teaching me by example how to work hard and always be kind. Thanks to my 6th grade teacher for making me feel important. Thanks to my dog for always, always. Being excited to see me when I come home. Thanks to the girl who lives 5 houses up across the street, for being there for me through thick and thin since 2nd grade. I don't know how I got so lucky to have you by my side through this whole growing-up thing, but somehow I got to have you and I couldn't be more grateful. Maybe...
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Jayne Soleil: paint chips away eventually
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Paint chips away eventually. To the boy who thought he was my foundation:. You didn't build me up. you just added some paint on my surface. Paint made me think I was prettier. Even though I didn't like it, but I trusted you. Looked good on me. But maybe I like red. You said I looked better when my walls were smooth and straight. But I like the way my bricks make my walls look rough and textured and imperfect. I think brick walls are unique. Orange was your favorite, and orange is great, but it's not me.
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Jayne Soleil: all my heart
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I can see the tears in your eyes and I know that you are hurting. And I can see the force in your smile. But I know you are trying. Thank you for trying. You have been so strong and so brave. Even though you feel like you've failed. Today is a sunday but all I can think about is that thursday. The rain was beating down on my window but I kept driving. Your heart is shattered in a million pieces all over the floor and that song doesn't play on the radio anymore. But I still love you. And I know you tried.
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Jayne Soleil: October 2016
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I can see the tears in your eyes and I know that you are hurting. And I can see the force in your smile. But I know you are trying. Thank you for trying. You have been so strong and so brave. Even though you feel like you've failed. Today is a sunday but all I can think about is that thursday. The rain was beating down on my window but I kept driving. Your heart is shattered in a million pieces all over the floor and that song doesn't play on the radio anymore. But I still love you. And I know you tried.
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Jayne Soleil: February 2016
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Warning: this is late night rambling. It's 1 am and I didn't take a nap today and I went to bed late last night and I'm confused at why I can't sleep. Maybe because I miss my sister. Maybe because I spent 4 hours in front of a computer today after school trying to finish my online PE by Friday because I graduate in 92 days and I can't graduate if I don't finish this freaking stupid sophomore PE. And my brother is going to be starting high school and my sister is going to be starting middle school. There'...
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Jayne Soleil: highschool highlight hi hey goodbye
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Highschool highlight hi hey goodbye. To the boy that sat behind me in orchestra in 10th grade and changed my life. All my loving / the well pennies. I'm not ready to say goodbye to. Paint / the paper kites. Thanks for everything, kp. our journeys are different but i'll think of you every day. Bright lights and cityscapes / sara bareilles. Because i could have fallen for you. Beautiful / ben rector. Thanks for changing the world. Love love love / of monsters and men. White blank page / mumford and sons.
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Jayne Soleil: April 2016
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Warning:this is not poetic. there aren't any metaphors or beautiful lines in this. it's just exactly what's on my mind and that's it. My uncle doesn't want to hire me as a server for our family business because he doesn't think I'll work well under pressure, and it sucks because I'm starting to believe that's true. My friend is struggling with an addiction and it's worse than last week and I don't know how to save them. but I feel like it's my responsibility to, even though it's not. Last night I laughed...
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Jayne Soleil: we always knew
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It's been a while since i last heard your voice and i miss you. I like driving on your street because the trees remind me of childhood. And the houses make me feel warm. I turn eighteen in 41 days and move out in 42 days. When i turn 41 you'll be 42 and we won't be speaking anymore. I don't want to be missing you. You are going to live on a different continent and i am going to be lacing up my snow boots and your words keep me up more than the cold wind hitting my face. And next june is so far away.
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Jayne Soleil: November 2016
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Here to stay (please). This is for him. For the anxiety and depression that consumes his mind. This is for thursday night. This is for that bottle of pills. And the angry texts with his mom. And this is for the now empty bottle of pills. This is for you. Did you get that? Listen right now. turn on your favorite song and let it fill your soul. Put on your favorite jacket and go outside and walk around. Feel your legs move. Feel your heart beat. Run until your lungs burn and your cheeks are bright red.
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Jayne Soleil: journal entries throughout high school
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Journal entries throughout high school. Inspired by this post. September 19, 2013. Hearing the words come out of his mouth- it's not something I can even explain.". October 11, 2013. I've never really known what I want to do, but now I know I want to go to USU. I feel really good about it, and I can't wait.". January 1, 2014. I met [ him. And his best friend tonight, and I hope they think of me now whenever they drive past my street.". February 8, 2014. March 28, 2014. Everyone was staring at us. Took me...
