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Eternal Ramblings of a Confused Mind: August 2014
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Tuesday, August 19, 2014. I woke up just a little past six this morning. It was in that space between sleep and wake that I thought about how I needed to spend my day looking for a job. The past thirty months or so have been full of false starts and it has been issue of work that has bothered me the most. Subscribe to: Posts (Atom). Stalk me, baby! View my complete profile. Follow me on Twitter. Here’s Looking At You, Kid. Twenty-six years ago today. ON PHILIP ROTH, AND FORGETTING. To Have And Not To Hold.
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Eternal Ramblings of a Confused Mind: July 2014
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Tuesday, July 22, 2014. Thanks to everyone who has been reading my ramblings and for all the comments and words of encouragement. I really appreciate it. It has all meant a lot to me. Saturday, July 05, 2014. July 5, 2014. I am still going through and dealing with a lot of things I really wish I didn’t have in my life and while I can’t see much of a path right now, I can see where the next few steps may lead and hopefully from there, see a little further. Wednesday, July 02, 2014. July 2, 2014. I have no...
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Eternal Ramblings of a Confused Mind: November 2014
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Monday, November 24, 2014. Maybe it is the upcoming holidays, but I find myself thinking about it a lot. I don’t understand how someone that has such easy access to some wonderful things in life, would choose to keep herself chained to misery and almost wear it with pride. I never want to be that person. Friday, November 07, 2014. I have also noticed she likes to bring up anger. She loves guilt. She loves to be the victim. Anything said that she doesn’t like or agree with somehow gets t...Yesterday, she ...
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Eternal Ramblings of a Confused Mind: April 2014
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Wednesday, April 09, 2014. Over thirty years later, we got back in touch and I was able to explain. She had pretty much forgotten all that, but more importantly, she was just was warm and kind and happy and accepting as I remembered. Those things came across in our increasingly longer and personal mails on Facebook and then in person when we met face-to-face just a couple of months ago. Subscribe to: Posts (Atom). Stalk me, baby! View my complete profile. Follow me on Twitter. Twenty-six years ago today.
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Eternal Ramblings of a Confused Mind: April 2015
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Thursday, April 09, 2015. We were also given an application packet to complete. When we got home that evening, I read through the questions. Some are very basic such as income and expenses. Others are hard, including talking about how anger was expressed in the home when I was growing up. Then there are the questions about our relationship. What would we change about the other person? What would they change about us? Will I be a good dad? Will I revert to behavior I grew up with? How could anyone be?
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Eternal Ramblings of a Confused Mind: May 2014
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Saturday, May 31, 2014. 884 Eight hundred eighty-four. Days. Two years, five months and two days. One hundred twenty-six weeks. And then it was Memorial Day, 2014. My life now will be different. My diet has to change a little to be even stricter. Alcohol is a thing of the past. Cardio and being in excellent shape has got to be a priority. Being kind of in shape is no longer an option. It’s all good stuff, just wish it didn’t have to be under these circumstances. Sunday, May 11, 2014. The World of Dating.
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Eternal Ramblings of a Confused Mind: March 2014
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Sunday, March 09, 2014. The Move - Part Two. Not everything has always gone great. On my first boat ride to Bongoyo Island after the stroke, I stepped out of the boat, lost my footing and went under. There was the second or two of panic and embarrassment followed by lots of laughter and a bit of teasing. I have found that once that worst fear happens, I know it is all going to be ok. Saturday, March 08, 2014. You can imagine how my imagination has been shifted into overdrive. Was this a CSI location?
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Eternal Ramblings of a Confused Mind: January 2015
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Wednesday, January 21, 2015. John’s gay lifestyle is far more exciting than mine. He gets to pick up the dog poop in the backyard on a regular basis. I sometimes feel jealous, as though I am on the outside looking in on a life I may never have. So that, folks, is a secret look into a gay lifestyle. Can we all please stop referring to the gay lifestyle? Sunday, January 18, 2015. 8220;With great power comes great responsibility” – Voltaire. They should laugh it off and stop acting like angry children.
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Eternal Ramblings of a Confused Mind: March 2015
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Friday, March 20, 2015. The Next Big Step. I have wanted to be a dad since I was in my mid-twenties. It was something I pretty much kept to myself as that was time when gay men weren’t fathers. It was something I wanted and knew I would never have. Like living on the Starship Enterprise or traveling through time. After we got into a relationship, John and I talked about it a few times. He is amazing with my niece and nephews and I sometimes wonder if they don’t love and enjoy him more than me&#...I left ...
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Eternal Ramblings of a Confused Mind: October 2014
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Tuesday, October 21, 2014. Cranial Spinal Integration (CSI) allows the left and right brain hemispheres to rebalance and reintegrate in a profound way which improves the functioning of the central nervous system automatically. This then allows your body to experience restored function and improved health. I am really looking forward to see what else happens and where this all leads. And I am really enjoying the uncomfortable feeling of being hungry again! Subscribe to: Posts (Atom). Stalk me, baby!