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Life Without Sandy: October 2012
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Tuesday, October 30, 2012. The hurricane that hit the Eastern seaboard yesterday has left a trail of damage in its wake, disrupting and sometimes claiming lives. As with others throughout the country and the world, my thoughts are with those who are suffering and who face long clean-up efforts ahead. But I am three thousand miles away, not personally affected by the storm,. I told her I needed an appropriate photo, and several pictures. Of her or us with serene water appeared in the screensaver. She want...
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Life Without Sandy: December 2012
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Sunday, December 30, 2012. Time just keeps passing. The days march on, relentlessly. Though milestones related to Sandy's death are less frequent, it's a rare hour that I don't think about her, talk to her, or realize once again how bizarre it is that she's been dead for so many months. I started knitting again in Portland, the first time since Sandy. Died I'd been making her a pair of gloves, and I didn't have. The heart to continue the project without her. But I'm nearly. Links to this post. I felt the...
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Life Without Sandy: May 2013
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Saturday, May 25, 2013. The times she didn't die. Sometimes when I'm feeling sorry for myself, I flip it around and think about just how lucky I am to have had Sandy for as many years as I did. I think about all the times I could have lost her. The danger her gallbladder attacks posed while she waited for insurance to kick in so she could have surgery. This was the third day after her accident in 2005. In earlier pictures, we documented her injuries. And her expression was grim. By day 3, she was. The bi...
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Life Without Sandy: November 2013
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Sunday, November 17, 2013. Nearly two and a half years after Sandy died, I think I've found a pretty good balance. I miss her terribly, implore her to return, and cherish my memories. But I'm no longer hesitant to make changes to our home, give away things that have outlasted their usefulness, even plan for the future. That's good progress, I think. What's most interesting to me is that most of the people I share with have also seen, felt, or heard (or smelled! Camouflaged by her ill-fitting lifejacket.
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Life Without Sandy: April 2013
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Friday, April 26, 2013. The main goals of the National Breast Cancer Coalition's Deadline 2020 project are to prevent primary breast cancer, so that people wouldn't develop it in the first place, and to prevent metastasis, saving the lives of those who have already had it, past or present. Sandy's oncology infusion nurses quickly became our friends. During her initial treatment and again when she had metastatic. Cancer. But it would be great to have met them under different. Peggy Orenstein did her homew...
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Life Without Sandy: November 2012
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Saturday, November 24, 2012. New technology brings with it new ways to hurt, scam, and lie to other people. I know more than I'd like to about trolls, phishing, and other common abuses of the Internet. But I hadn't realized that there are apparently a disturbingly large number of people masquerading as terminally ill. I read "The Lying Disease," an article. By Cienna Madrid in The Stranger. Why would someone feign illness? When she lost her hair during the first chemo treatments in. I understand the desi...
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Life Without Sandy: July 2013
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Friday, July 19, 2013. For the past five weeks, I've been aware of where we were each day in 2011; what was happening; whether Sandy was conscious, in pain, receiving treatment; who was with us; what we thought would happen next and what actually did (the two rarely matched). It's a weird thing to think "oh good, she's dead." Because of course it's not what I meant at all. I wasn't happy that she was dead. I was relieved that the countdown was over, that I no longer had to worry about whether...This morn...
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Life Without Sandy: Continuing the conversation
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Sunday, November 17, 2013. Nearly two and a half years after Sandy died, I think I've found a pretty good balance. I miss her terribly, implore her to return, and cherish my memories. But I'm no longer hesitant to make changes to our home, give away things that have outlasted their usefulness, even plan for the future. That's good progress, I think. What's most interesting to me is that most of the people I share with have also seen, felt, or heard (or smelled! Camouflaged by her ill-fitting lifejacket.
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Life Without Sandy: Another year
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Wednesday, January 1, 2014. Here's to a new year of strength and energy. The clock rolled over to 2014 this morning, our arbitrary demarcation of a new year. I've been feeling reflective - and sometimes wallowing in self-pity - since our anniversary a few weeks ago, and I've spent a fair amount of time thinking about the past year. So how did I do in 2013? I hope everyone reading this has had a good holiday season, however and whatever you celebrate, and that 2014 is a year of growth and peace for you.
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Life Without Sandy: My non-imaginary companion
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Friday, November 1, 2013. Twenty-seven months after Sandy's death, I find I don't need this outlet quite as much. Though never happy about Sandy's passing, and certainly not accepting of it, I've kind of grown comfortable with our altered relationship. She's still quick with a laugh, and she makes me laugh, too. I have plenty of my own revelations, but Sandy's responses fall into my consciousness differently. They're clearly her. Thoughts, not mine. In short, I'm living. November 4, 2013 at 8:09 PM.
