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Through Suffering: November 2006
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Sunday, November 19. My plans for the summer involved nothing more than sleeping in, spending time with my friends, and waterskiing. But all of that was gone now. My mother had been diagnosed with breast cancer two years prior, which had now spread to her liver, lymph nodes, lungs, and her brain. Chemotherapy and radiation treatments were now weekly rituals. The tumors in my mother’s brain would swell and cause seizures in her arm. The greatest difficulty was getting up from chairs. Soon though, when I w...
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Through Suffering
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Friday, December 12. I suppose i'll just be honest. I judge. I talk bad about people. I give people bad looks. I hold grudges. I get mad easily. I argue. I have flaws, i have things i regret. But God still uses me. i can't believe it, i don't understand it. But God uses even me. I have to remember to not get in my own way. Subscribe to: Post Comments (Atom). Michigan, United States. View my complete profile.
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Through Suffering: May 2008
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Monday, May 19. It had been a while, since i felt it that deeply. Every so often, there's the reminder of something. But usually it doesnt hurt this bad. Usually i smile, cause i thought of you without trying. but this, this was different. it wasn't a food, or a place, that brought memories of being with you. It wasnt a characteristic or trait that reminded me of you. It came rushing back- all of it! I hate that toilet seat. I hated that wheelchair. I'm sorry. I still dont like the smell of your room,.
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Through Suffering: June 2008
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Wednesday, June 18. The train and made our way to Berekvam. We got off at Berekvam, the smallest station i have ever seen. We were the only people that got off, we thought we were lost, until we saw our guides with our bikes. We got on our bikes and started making our way down the mountain. The views were spectacular! We wanted to take pictures after every curve. We stopped at the small streams to fill up our waterbottles with glacier water, so good! OH MY GOODNESS was it cold! Tuesday, June 17. We woke ...
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Through Suffering: ....
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Thursday, October 16. Why does your mouth only open to tell me negative things? I only hear what i do wrong or what i should do. That's not a conversation. You never ask me how my day went. You never seem interested in what I'm saying. Just because you look so far down on me,. Doesn't mean that I look up to you. Subscribe to: Post Comments (Atom). Michigan, United States. View my complete profile.
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Through Suffering: January 2007
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Monday, January 8. I am realizing how close-minded i am once again today. It makes me sad, to step back and look at myself and what i am doing. I hope i can learn to love to learn again sometime soon- there is much yet i do not know. A man of knowledge uses words with restraint,. And a man of understading is even-tempered. Even a fool is thought wise if he keeps silent,. And discerning if he holds his tongue.". Monday, January 1. An overview of 2006, in 25 items. 3 Praise Band: An aspect of my life that ...
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Through Suffering: harumph...
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Wednesday, December 10. I was listening to a sermon yesterday in the car, and the preacher said,. Trials don't build character, they reveal it.". I had never heard this before, but it intrigued me the more i thought about it. I have gone through plenty of trials and sufferings. i wonder, if those experiences didn't build my character, then what did? Was it all those years of going to church, attending a christian school and going on mission trips? Was it something i inherited from my parents?
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Through Suffering: August 2008
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Thursday, August 28. You know, its been 4 years already. That's so much. that is a whole 5th of my life. and to me, at least right now, it seems like the most important 4 years. Oh, and i forgot the frosting receipe, and that salad you used to always make. do these shoes look good? Why does a broken heart hurt so much? Was it my fault? What should i get dad for christmas? Why id my body this way? Can i finish this quilt? How does a dating relationship work? Subscribe to: Posts (Atom).
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Through Suffering: December 2006
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Wednesday, December 27. Love, love, love. Where is the heart without love? Ah, but where is it in love? This is such a horribly confusing thing to me. There are so many different types of love, so many depths. It pains me so very very much to think that i am so incapable of so many types of love. That my heart simply cannot love in certain ways, it really hurts. Beyond just the ability to love others as i believe they deserve, i also fail at being able to love in all the ways that love exists. Though man...
